hopes and dreams, | part six chapters 207 to 258

Chapter 218 - Goodbye & Hello Big Boy

Penny sat on the couch at Jamie and Nicola's holding Tiegan and Angel, her parents had come too when they found out what happened. "I can't stay here," Penny said suddenly as she looked down at a sleeping Tiegan. "Don't tell me your fucking forgiving him," Nicola said fuming. "No way, its over," Penny said as she looked at her, "I can't say in Liverpool anymore, I'm going to stay with JT and Toni for a few days I think." Jamie looked at her shocked. "That would kill him," Jamie said seriously. "I know and it's not my problem anymore, it stopped being my problem when he shoved his dick up her twat," Penny said getting upset again.

"Steven mate," Wayne said as he walked into the bar to find Steven just sitting there with Michael. "How is she?" Steven said as he got up. "Oh she's grand, doing the can can she is," Coleen said sarcastically as she walked past. "Col," Wayne said sternly. Coleen looked at Wayne and walked towards the rest of the girls. "She's a mess, what the hell were you playing at?" Wayne asked seriously. "I don't know Wazza, that's why you have to take me to her," Steven said seriously. "I don't think so mate, you need to sit down, sober up and sort out what your going to do, going round the willy nilly isn't going to do you any favor's, especially when you see your in-laws," Wayne said he pushed him down. "How bad is she really?" Steven asked scared. "She's not good Stevie, think what she was like when her dad was fucking her about, then double it," Wayne said sighing.

"Why did you have to stop me hitting her, Xabi?" Beckie asked annoyed as he she carried baby Ellie in with Xabi behind her carrying a sleeping Josh. "Because I was scared she would hurted you," Xabi said as he went bright red with embarrassment. Beckie laughed as she gently placed Ellie in her cot. "Please Xabi, I may have let my ex hit me, but I wouldn't let that scrag do it," Beckie said laughing as she winked at him. "Beckie..." Xabi said embarrassedly. "Yes," Beckie said as she looked at him. "Nothing," Xabi said as he walked into the bathroom sighing. Beckie giggled at Xabi's embarrassment.

"You can't move, I'm about to give birth, I need you," Nicola said as she started to cry, Jamie put his arm around her. "I'll come straight away as soon as I hear your waters have broken, but I have to go now, because I know he will talk me around, and I'll fall for it, because I love him, but I can't take him back, he broke one promise he made me when I fell pregnant with the twins, he promised he'd never do a dad on me, and he has," Penny said sadly, not crying she had no more tears left. "Do you have to leave tonight?" Nicola asked nodding her head, she understood why. "I do, he'll know I've come here I've got to go now," Penny said seriously. "I'll miss you," Nicola said as she cuddled her, "and don't worry I won't let him get away with it."

"I love her," Steven said sadly. "God, well thats a start," Wayne said shaking his head. "And do you love Alex?" Rio asked seriously. "fuck NO!" Steven exclaimed at him. "Well that's good," Michael said as he slapped Rio round his head gently, "You need to say something like... Penny I know I hurt you really badly, but you have to trust me, I was drunk, I love you with all my heart, with out you my heart aches so badly." Wayne started laugh. "Where the fuck did you get that sloppy shit from?" Wayne said in hysterics. "OI can we please remember my marriage is going down the drain here?" Steven asked seriously. "And whose fault is that?" Louise asked as she walked past them collecting glasses.

Xabi and Beckie were sitting in the living room when Beckie looked at a nervous Xabi. "You alright?" Beckie asked as she cuddled up to him, giving him a good look down her top. "Ci, Ci," Xabi said as he diverted his eyes away from her top, and hoping he wouldn't get hard. "I might go to bed," Beckie said as she stood up and gently kissed him on the cheek. "Night senorita," Xabi said as he smiled at her. Beckie walked towards her bedroom then stopped and turned around. "Oh, can you just unzip my top please," Beckie asked as she turned around. Xabi looked at her back and gulped. "Ci," Xabi said as he got up.

James picked up Penny and placed her in his car and looked at her. "You sure you want to do this?" James said as he looked at her. "I need too dad, I need to go away for a few days and sort my head out and I can't be near him, when I do it," Penny said as she looked at the twins fast asleep in their car seats. Nicola came in the car and held her hand. "I love you babe," Nicola said as she hugged her. "I love you too," Penny said as she hugged her back, "and don't worry I'll be there at the labour, and you'll see me on Sunday, can you give this to Steven?" Penny passed her a letter. "Whats this?" Nicola asked confused. "Just give it to him yeah?" Penny said as she looked at her. Nicola nodded. "Can I punch him at the same time?" Nicola asked laughing. "No, you might hurt him," Penny said seriously. Nicola walked out the car and burst into tears as the car sped off towards London.

Steven still sat with the others thinking of ways to win his wife around when Jamie and Nicola came back. "How is she?" Coleen asked suddenly when she saw them walk in, Jamie supporting Nicola. "Not good," Nicola said as she walked towards Steven. "Brace yourselves Steven, there could be trouble," Rio said as he saw Nicola walk towards him. "Nicola before you lay into me, I know I was a fucking knobhead, you don't need to tell me," Steven said as he looked at her holding a letter in her head, "What's that?" Nicola looked at Jamie as she burst into tears. "BECAUSE OF YOU MY BEST FRIEND AS LEFT, I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL STEVEN GERRARD," Nicola screamed at him as she slapped him around the face so hard, Steven nearly fell off his seat. "Left?" Steven asked confused as he got over the slap, he opened the letter and his heart broke into two as Penny's engagement and wedding rings fell out.

Dear Steven,

I'm sorry about leaving without saying goodbye, I couldn't though as I knew you would talk me around, use your Gerrard charm that I fell in love with, but the truth is I just have to get away from you for a while, I'm to angry to look at you or talk to you at the moment, maybe after a while the pain my disappear, but you hurt me Stevie, you promised me you'd never do my dad on me, and you did just that.

I'm sorry about taking the kids away from you without saying goodbye, but I will bring them up to see you soon, I promise, I may not want to see you but your children have a right to see you, I know Angel well especially miss you, the way you fall asleep with her on your shoulder, look at me, its happening to me already, beginning to forgive you and its only in a letter. About the new baby, I will keep you involved and I know you won't like this, but JT and Toni say they will look after me and baby.

You may have noticed I have given bag my rings to you, well its not saying its the end, because I want to be Mrs. Gerrard for the rest of my life, its saying, win me back and promise me your vows on Christmas Day meant something to you,

Love
Penny, Angel, Tiegan & Baby Gerrard.

Xabi walked towards Beckie and gently touched her back to get to the zip and he gently pulled it down, very slowly. Beckie shivered as she felt his hot breath on the back of her neck. Xabi thought of Jamie's advice and thought if he was going to do it it had to be now. Xabi turned her around suddenly and slammed her against the wall. "Xabi," Beckie said as she looked at him. "Shh," Xabi said shyly as he kissed her passionately on the lips, slowly at first in case she pushed him away. When he pulled away, she smiled at him. "About fucking time you knob, I've been wanting you do that for ages," Beckie said laughing. With that Xabi kissed her again, this time slipping her top off as he did it.

Chapter - 219 - New life's

Xabi woke up to find Beckie sleeping in his arms. He gently kissed her on the cheek and she groaned as she looked up at him. "Morning my senorita," Xabi said as he kissed her again gently on the lips. "Morning my sexy Spaniard," Beckie said giggling. Xabi gently heaved her on top of him and kissed her passionately. Beckie giggled. "First of all you can't summon up the courage to ask me out, now your shagging me like no tomorrow," Beckie said giggling.

Steven woke up and rolled over to find Penny's side of the bed empty he sighed. He got up and headed towards the bathroom, on the way there he walked past the nursery and walked in, seeing two empty cots broke his heart into two. "what a fucking idiot," Steven said as he looked in the mirror, "I so don't want to go training!" Steven ran out the bathroom and then stopped as he saw a picture of Penny. He picked it up and stroked her face and then ran out of the house towards his car.

Agger was in the dressing room with Jamie, Peter and Michael. "You look shattered mate," Jamie said laughing. "Yeah, not as bad as you look though," Dan said laughing. "Don't tell me, you were shagging some hot bird," Peter said laughing. "I wish! I was listening to shagging instead," Dan said laughing. "Porn movie, didn't think that was your style," Michael said laughing. "Xabi movie, more like," Agger said laughing. "Eh?" Jamie asked laughing. "God the noises coming from his bedroom, fucking hell, shy my arse, he is a right goer," Dan said laughing. "With Beckie?" Peter asked laughing. "Yep, her dress was on the sofa when I got in, her shoe in the sink, and her bra hanging on the fan in the living room," Dan said laughing. "The horny fucker," Jamie said laughing. Just then Xabi walked in and they burst out laughing.

Penny lay on the sofa looking at her wedding finger, it felt empty without wearing it. "You alright treasure?" John asked as he came down the stairs wearing his Chelsea training kit. "Fine, thanks for letting me stay, John," Penny said as she smiled at him. "Your welcome, if anyone knows what your going through its Toni," John said as he kissed Justine goodbye who was sitting in her highchair. "Too right I do, but things well be alright, just you see, he will win you back, Steven's crazy about you," Toni said as she walked out of the kitchen holding a mug of coffee. "If he was that crazy about me, he wouldn't have cheated," Penny said sadly as she looked at Tiegan and Angel sitting up playing with their toys. "We do stupid things, we think with our dicks, now I better be off, oh Frank says Elen will pop round later with Carly," John said as he walked out blowing kisses to each of them.

"What funny?" Xabi asked as he got ready for training. "So did you manage to calm Beckie down last night?" Jamie asked laughing. Xabi looked at him confused. "Ci, Ci, she calm now," Xabi said as he sat down waiting for Rafa to come in. "So we hear, so what calmed her down, you going down on her?" Peter asked in hysterics. "Pardon?" Xabi asked confused. "Oh Xabi, you fucked her didn't you?" Jamie asked laughing. "Every time I walk in someones talking about sex, you guys have it on the brain," Rafa said as he walked in laughing, "surprised Steven's not here, he normally talks about it the most, where is he?"

Steven slammed into the changing room and sat down in a strop. "Glad you could join us," Rafa said as he looked at him. "Yeah well I'm here now, ain't I?" Steven said as he glared at him. "Steven, you can't come in here late and then talk to me like a teenager," Rafa said seriously. "Yeah well Rafa, I am one, I'm 18 and if you don't like it you know where you can stuff it," Steven said as he rolled his eyes. "Sir, he doesn't mean it, he's had a bad weekend," Jamie said seriously as he looked at Steven. "Yes Jamie, why don't you tell everyone, what a dick I am," Steven said as he glared at him. Just then his phone went.

"Hello," Steven said as he sighed. "Yes, is that a Mr. Steven Gerrard?" the girl on the other phone said. "Yep, whose calling?" Steven asked rolling his eyes. "Chelsea FC, you called earlier about John Terry," she said smiling. "Oh yes, I was wondering if you could tell me where he lives you see, me and him used to be mates at school," Steven said as he pulled a funny face at the lads. "Yes sure... I'll just go and get it for you sir," the lady said as she walked away. "What are you doing?" Jamie whispered. "How the fuck am I going to win her back if I don't know where the fuck she is?" Steven asked shaking his head.

There was a knock at the door at the end of the day, Toni answered and was greeted with 100 red roses. "Is there a Mrs Gerrard here," the man asked. "I am," Penny said as she waved her hand. "These are for you," he said as he bought them in and put them on the table in front of her. Penny picked up the card and started to laugh when she saw the card:

To my gorgeous wife, I love you and miss you, please come home and I'm sorry.

LOL at Kira! I can share him.

Chapter 220 - Cab Fares

Steven arrived at Anfield, for the match against Chelsea in the FA Cup Quarter Final. He knocked on Rafa's door waiting for a reply. When he got it he walked in and sat down. "Phil said you wanted to see me sir," Steven said as he sighed. "Yes I do Stevie, I want to know what's got into you, your moody, distant, you don't have a laugh anymore," Rafa said as he turned around and looked at him, "your playing crap, you look tired, whats happened to my star player?"

Penny was in the cab with Toni and the children and looked up at Anfield. "You OK?" Toni asked as she looked at her. "Fine, looking forward to the match," Penny said sighing. "How about seeing Steven again?" Toni asked worriedly. Penny sighed. "It will be hard, but he has a right to see Tiegan and Angel," Penny said as she looked at her girls who were no longer babies. "Alright, wait there and I go and ask Steven for the cab fare," Toni said as she got up. Angel stood up with her arms up, to be taken. "It's alright Toni, you can take her," Penny said as she looked at Toni's worried face.

"Everything is fine Rafa, well it will be soon," Steven said seriously. "Steven, whats going on with you and Penny? Are you having troubles?" Rafa asked seriously. "She's left me boss, I shagged someone else and she caught me," Steven said as he looked at him. "Oh Steven, do you really think she will take you back while your moping around feeling sorry for yourself, you need to get out there and show her how much you love her," Rafa said seriously. "How though boss?" Steven asked sighing. Rafa laughed. "If I knew that Steven, I'd be a marriage guidance counselor instead of a football coach," Rafa said laughing. Steven smiled at him. "Boss, would it be OK to miss training tomorrow, so I can do something for her?" Steven asked him. "Go on then, but only if you play well today," Rafa said laughing.

The rest of the gang took their seats out on the KOP. "I hope Steven plays well today," Rio said as he put his hand on Rebecca's small round bump. "I hope so too, he's been playing shocking at the moment," Wayne said shaking his head. "Well he only has himself to blame," Nicola said bitchily. "Yes he has, have you heard from Penny?" Coleen asked Nicola. "Yeah, she's fine, Frank and John took her to her six month scan, yesterday," Nicola said laughing. "Oh Steven will love that," Garry said laughing. "Well he shouldn't of stuck his dick somewhere he shouldn't of should he?" Louise asked them in a bitchy tone.

Steven sat in the dressing room focusing and trying to take in Rafa's instructions. When they heard a knock on the door. "Come in," Rafa bellowed out. "Sorry, can I speak to Steven please, his wife wants him to pay for her taxi fare," Toni said as she held onto Angel tightly. "PENNY'S HERE!" Steven exclaimed as he jumped up in a flash. "Dadda," Angel said as she wriggled in Toni's arms. "Angel," Steven said as he took her in his arms and held her tightly and kissed her head, "when did you start talking?" Toni smiled at him as he cuddled and kissed his daughter. "Sorry, Steven, but the fare, we have to go and get into our seats," Toni said apologetically. "Yeah course, here," Steven said as he took out about a hundred quid from his pocket, "oh and Toni tell her I love her." Toni laughed as she went to take Angel from him. "Bye gorgeous, see you later," Steven said as gently kissed her on the cheek.

Steven came out of the dressing room five minutes later with renewed hope he could win his wife back, he saw John Terry and Frank Lampard walk out with Shaun Wright Phillips and Joe Cole laughing. John smiled at him and Steven smiled back. "Thanks for taking Penny in," Steven said as he shook his hand. "Don't mention it," John said as he grabbed his mascot hands. "How is she John?" Steven asked worriedly. "She's fine, we went with her to the hospital to see her six month scan, shame you weren't there," Frank said back bitchily. Steven looked at him pissed off. "Frank shut the fuck up for once in your life will you?" John asked turning around pissed off.

Just then they walked out for the game a game full of diving, sniping and goals, who wins who knows? Will Steven win his wife back? Who goes into labour and who is getting up Wayne's nose?